Welcome
This course is designed to help you develop a relationship with the internal parts of yourself—your impulses, energies, and emotions—that form your multifaceted soul. While these aspects are part of you, they are not you. You are the experiencer of these parts, not their puppet. By learning to observe them from a place of neutrality, you can reframe their influence, slow down, and experience their energy fully, ultimately neutralizing resistance and fostering alignment with your natural flow.
As the title suggests, Tools of the Soul will guide you in accessing the resources your soul connects you to. These tools aid in cultivating the separation necessary for observation and healing. From my experiences and studies, I’ve found that all effective modalities share one fundamental purpose: uncovering, embracing, and utilizing inherent inner resources. In this course, we’ll explore 21 different energies that act as these resources, supporting the redistribution of awareness and fostering profound growth.
This journey has taught me to step out of mindsets that tell me I’m unworthy—of love, success, creativity, and life. I’ve proven to myself, again and again, that I am deserving. I reinforce this belief whenever I separate myself from negative thoughts and step into the truth of my worth. My worth isn’t something I need to convince myself of; it’s inherent. The challenge lies in aligning all parts of myself with that truth, especially the parts that still hold doubt or fear.
I’ve realized that healing isn’t about acquiring new skills or awareness. It’s about remembering what’s always been available to us. You can feel this truth—resonate with it deeply—and yet, moments, minutes, or even days later, slip back into old patterns of doubt. That’s okay. Healing is like redirecting a river: it takes time, persistence, and compassion.
For me to truly heal, I must accept where I am. This means separating from the “shoulds”—where I think I should be and how I think I should feel—and instead embracing the present moment. This process requires patience, kindness, and an understanding that the parts of us that feel unworthy are simply carrying baggage, not reflecting our true selves.
Ultimately, in a very simplistic sense, our thoughts are just interpretations of energy stored within the body. Sometimes, this energy feels heavy or blocked, and the mind misinterprets it as self-judgment or unworthiness. But these feelings are not the truth of how we truly feel. The truth lies in those moments of love and connection when we treat ourselves with care and compassion. Those moments reveal our authentic self—a self that is inherently worthy, whole, and deserving of every good thing.
A Shift in Perspective
This journey is not about identifying solely with the mind or body. Instead, it explores what it means to exist as a soul—a dynamic, energetic being. While we are a collection of parts, emotions, and energies, we are also the unifying awareness that observes these elements. Embracing this duality leads to deeper understanding and self-compassion.
Understanding why we must feel Our Feelings
Avoidance of feelings is often rooted in our traumatic experiences. These experiences can disconnect us from our bodies, as the intensity of unsafe emotions compels us to retreat into our minds. This disconnection serves as a protective strategy but also inhibits our ability to process emotions fully.
Reconnecting with our feelings requires creating a safe space within ourselves. Intellectualizing the process can help some of us craft a plan to approach these emotions more gradually. Revisiting energy may not feel safe or comfortable at first, but understanding the healing value of this work can motivate us to re-engage with our bodies step by step.
Our bodies hold answers and will respond when we ask them questions. However, to truly connect, we must validate our body’s responses and acknowledge the strategies it developed for survival. This process involves distinguishing between the mind as a tool and the awareness that observes the mind. This distinction must be experienced to be fully understood.
The Unblending of the Self
I see this process within the course as an unbending of the self—a separation between parts of us that were once so tightly intertwined that it’s hard to tell where one ends and the other begins. It’s fascinating yet confusing when you recognize distinct differences between two fundamental aspects of your being.
On one side, there’s the soul-self: the grounded, unwavering part of you that is purely awareness and observation. It’s confident, sure, and deeply connected to truth, unshaken by the flux of life. This part knows it is simply witnessing existence, untouched by judgment or attachment.
On the other side, there’s the ego-self: the part that feels weighed down by the world, caught in separation and identification. This is the part that cries out, Life is unfair! The world is against me! It feels isolated, entangled in emotions and stories about “me versus the world.”
Experiencing and Witnessing Energy
What’s transformative is understanding the difference between being lost in an energy and observing it. When we get caught up in the flow of life—immersed in its highs and lows—we lose awareness. We become entangled, reacting unconsciously to what arises.
But there’s another option: we can step back and witness life. We can be involved in the flow or watch it from a place of stillness. This separation is what we practice as we grow in awareness—the ability to be in the world without being consumed by it.
This shift brings a more profound truth: awareness itself is layered. There’s the simple awareness of being, and then there’s the awareness that recognizes itself—an awareness that notices its feelings and reactions. This meta-awareness allows us to engage with life on new levels.
With each new awareness comes a new truth. These truths expand and deepen, revealing parts of ourselves we weren’t ready to understand. Sometimes, the intensity of these revelations feels overwhelming, as if the mind could collapse under the weight of such vastness. Perhaps that’s why these truths come to us gradually—when we’re ready to integrate them without falling into fear or neurosis.
Breaking Down and Renewing
The ego-self clings to questions like, Why did this happen to me? Why these cards? Why this fate? It fixates on the narrative of victimhood, searching for blame rather than understanding.
But as we grow in awareness, we start to see that every experience carries meaning, no matter how painful. We can choose a life of awareness—a path where every new truth reshapes us. And with every truth, a version of ourselves dissolves, making space for something new.
This is the essence of transformation: each day, a part of us “dies,” so a new version can be born. While “Each Day I Die” might sound dramatic, it captures the essence of this cycle of death and renewal.
However, language matters. If we’re not careful, metaphors like this can be misunderstood, especially by those who look to us for guidance. It’s funny how specific phrases are taken for granted by those who understand their deeper meaning while others may struggle to grasp them.
The Meaning of Renewal
Ultimately, the process is about becoming. Each day, we break down old identifications and reconstruct a new self. Every truth we uncover changes us, not just mentally or emotionally but energetically.
This journey is deeply personal, yet it connects us to the universal. The unblending of the self allows us to see life not as something happening to us but as something we are consciously co-creating.
And with each layer we peel back, we find that the essence of who we are—the soul-self—has always been there, patiently waiting for us to recognize it.