Reconnection to My Energy (A Daily Practice)

I hear a calling—a persistent, almost foreign voice urging me toward a way of being that feels unlike anything I’ve known. It challenges how I’ve engaged with myself and my body in a way that once felt natural but steeped in disconnection. For so long I lived in a state of separation from my body, overwhelmed by the sense that my mind and body were at odds. I knew, intellectually, that my body held the score of my experiences, but I avoided addressing it. I told myself the past was the past, so why revisit it?

Externally, I projected an image of strength and stability. But internally, I felt as though I was burying emotional “trash” under my feet—trash I didn’t want to deal with. Over time, the pile grew taller, and I found ways to numb myself: distractions like alcohol, music, or avoidance. I convinced myself this was separation, but it wasn’t. It was denial.

Now, my awareness has shifted. I’m reconnecting with my body in a way that feels like reuniting with a long-lost family member. Each conscious breath brings me closer to myself. This connection is emotional, profound, and healing—a reminder of what I missed for many years. I feel love, passion, and acceptance when I engage with this newfound awareness. Yet, some parts of me still resist. These parts don’t feel safe in this new reality and need time to trust and adjust.

My soul knows I’m ready for this connection, but my body is still catching up. There’s a gap between my mind’s understanding and my body’s readiness. When resistance arises, I remind myself that it’s okay to move slowly, to honor where I am, and to create safety within myself.

This journey has taught me to step out of mindsets that tell me I’m unworthy—of love, success, creativity, and life. I’ve proven to myself, again and again, that I am deserving. I reinforce this belief whenever I separate myself from negative thoughts and step into the truth of my worth. My worth isn’t something I need to convince myself of; it’s inherent. The challenge lies in aligning all parts of myself with that truth, especially the parts that still hold doubt or fear of that belief.

I’ve realized that healing isn’t about acquiring new skills or awareness. It’s about remembering what’s always been available to us. You can feel this truth—resonate with it deeply—and yet, moments later, slip back into old patterns of doubt. That’s okay. Healing is like redirecting a river: it takes time, persistence, and compassion.

To truly heal, we must accept where we are. This means separating from the “shoulds”—where we think we should be and how we think we should feel—(the stories we tell ourselves) and instead embracing the present moment. This process requires patience, kindness, and an understanding that the parts of us that feel unworthy are simply carrying baggage, not reflecting our true selves.

Ultimately, our thoughts are just interpretations of energy stored within the body. Sometimes, this energy feels heavy or blocked, and the mind misinterprets it as self-judgment or unworthiness. But these feelings are not the truth of who we are. The truth lies in those moments of love and connection when we treat ourselves with care and compassion. Those moments reveal our authentic self—a self that is inherently worthy, whole, and deserving of every good thing. That is what is always there: the ability to see that perspective!

Connecting to My Energy Through Breath

The easiest and most profound way I connect to my energy daily is through my breath. Not in a way where I obsessively monitor every inhale and exhale, but as a tool to bring me back into connection with my physical body.

Sometimes, I still get lost—caught up in thoughts, distractions, or the flow of the day—and that connection to my body fades. But when I slow down and focus on my breath, everything shifts. I feel my lungs filling, expanding. I feel the life force circulating within me, connecting me to something more significant—the trees, the leaves, the earth. I reflect on the miracle of the oxygen exchange in my cells and capillaries, the release of carbon dioxide, and the intricate balance of this entire system.

Bringing Awareness to the Body

As I breathe, I notice where I can feel the oxygen deeply—my chest, lungs, head, and arms—and where that sensitivity feels faint, like in my hips and legs. My lower body holds a lot of tension and repression. This space—linked to my lower chakras—has carried the weight of sexual shame, repression, and unacknowledged emotions for so long.

In my experience, society instills so much fear and shame around sexual energy. Growing up, these parts of us—our lower body and our sexuality—become places we disconnect from, avoid, or push away. Attachments often live here, stored in the body, creating a sense of fear and discomfort.

Creating Safety Within

This is why I sit with my energy. My intention is to become the safe place my energy desires. I consciously reassure the energy that I am feeling—this part of me—that I am here and safe. I do this through my breath, presence, and willingness to sit with the discomfort. 

In my experience, my trauma taught me to push parts of myself away. When pain arises, the mind does its job: it avoids, suppresses, and distracts to keep us “safe.” But this disconnection comes at a cost—we lose touch with our physical selves. The body feels unsafe because relaxing might mean re-experiencing the pain or memories stored deep within it.

The truth is, when we begin to relax these areas, old pain can resurface. It may feel raw, honest, and overwhelming, as though we relived when it happened. This is why the body resists—it doesn’t yet trust that it’s safe to release what’s been stored.

The Role of Intention

The key to this work is intention. Why are you sitting with your energy? Why are you connecting with your breath and your body? Your cells must feel the truth of that intention. They need to know why you’re showing up and why you’re creating this space. This is not about tricking the mind but aligning it with the heart.

When you bring your awareness to the body and sit with the energy—especially the parts that feel unsafe—you introduce them to safety. You’re re-establishing trust within yourself. The mind might initially resist, interpreting this as dangerous or unfamiliar, but it learns over time.

You become the steady presence, the “larger being” that allows your energy to exist: no stories, no memories, no judgment—just the safety of the present moment.

Reconnecting Heart, Mind, and Body

This process is about reuniting the heart, mind, and body. Unresolved energy fractures us and teaches us to disconnect. Healing brings us back together. Your energy must feel loved and safe. Your mind must understand that this love and safety come from within—from you.

Through this practice, you create a space where your energy feels held, you can breathe and release, and you no longer need to hide.

Connecting to my energy daily is a practice of patience and presence. Through my breath, I come home to my body. I learned to sit with the parts of myself that feel unsafe or unloved and to show them compassion.

This work isn’t easy, but it’s necessary. We reincarnated into these bodies for a reason, so why wouldn’t we love them? Why wouldn’t we care for them?  By creating safety within, I rebuild the connection to myself—one breath, one moment at a time.